Yeah, so I suck at blogging....

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Lizzy is 16! Can you believe it?

Hey all,

Since I've been a very bad blogger and haven't posted in a bit, I decided to make a few posts today. I got a new camera for my bday and have tons of pics and videos on it of my sister's 16th bday. Here are two that I hope you enjoy. The first one is of everyone singing Happy Bday.



The second one is of her hamming it up and showing off her Princess walk before she dives into her presents. :-) She's my little buttface!

Holy crap...what a difference a few weeks make!

My humblest apologies to any readers of this blog (all 2 of you) for my very evident lack of updating anything for a bit. It's been insane in my neck of the woods for a bit. I'm rolling out a new training program at work (going well so far) and I've been consumed with that professionally. Personally, I've been laying low and taking a much-needed interest in my personal health. I bought myself some personal training sessions for Xmas and so far, it's really going well. I'm just taking everything one day at a time and not setting myself up for failure but trying to achieve unrealistic expectations. I can't be one of those people who eat nothing but bread and water - but I also can't maintain my current menu of various fast food restaurants because I don't feel like cooking. So I've been compromising - I've given up all fast food and soda, but I'm allowing myself the simple pleasures of food, like butter and not forcing myself to eat only light or fat free foods. I know myself when it comes to food, and limiting myself too much backfires horribly and I end up eating twice as much and wondering why I've gained so much weight. So far, the newer approach is working. I get frustrated sometimes that I don't lose more than 1.5 to 2 pounds a week, but I hear that it's normal and the best part is....it's staying off. So, at my last weight in, I was 375.4 and I have 4.6 pounds to go before losing my first ten pounds. I've also put together a rewards poster for things I will do for myself when I hit certain milestones. At five pounds, it was new shoes; at ten pounds, it's a haircut. So, I'm very excited to weigh in tomorrow and see if I'm any closer to getting this mug cut and styled. So far, I've set my reward list at 200 pounds. I know I need to lose more than that, but I figure that 200 pounds is a huge accomplishment, so I'm just setting my sites there for right now. Here is the full list:
15 pounds - new blouse ($25 limit)
20 pounds - new bathing suit for summer (they make these really nifty slimming suits that I want really bad!)
30 pounds - new pants ($75 limit)
40 pounds - massage
50 pounds - $300 shopping spree
60 pounds - Salon day (mani pedi)
65 pounds - new shoes ($100 limit)
70 pounds - salon day (facial)
80 pounds - new outfit ($150 limit)
90 pounds - $200 accessory shopping (heehee...purses)
100 pounds - full spa pamper (the works) plus another shopping spree (5 full outfits)
110 pounds - complete hair makeover including color
120 pounds - massage
130 pounds - luxurious bedsheets (egyptain cotton baby!!)
140 pounds - shopping spree ($200 limit)
150 pounds - 1st article of LAMB clothing
200 pounds - put down payment on trip to Paris!

I've also decided that if when I reach my goal weight of 150 pounds (because seriously...a real woman needs some meat on her bones), I'm going to get a tattoo of 231 on my wrist to signify how much weight I lost from my heaviest point and to look at my wrist whenever I want to be really bad and remind myself of how far I've come. I'm so excited for this journey to keep going! I hope you all will wish me luck and send me encouragement because we all know how much I love Olive Garden's alfredo and that is no bueno for this girl! Also, if you have any better suggestions for rewards from 150 - 200 or 200 - 231 - let me know. :-)

This One's For Jennie! :-)

There are 117,637 people in the U.S. with the first name Christy.
Statistically the 477th most popular first name.
More than 99.9 percent of people with the first name Christy are female.
Names similar to Christy: Christiana Christine

And I found this HILARIOUS! It explains a lot about me:

There are 36,666 people in the U.S. with the last name Lindsay.

ROCK IT OUT! :-)

Just Chillin'

So...feeling kinda lazy today. Just woke up and felt the need to blog I guess. Right now I find myself very pensive over the past few days. While the New Year does hold alot of promise, it started out with HUGE drama for me. For those that know me, you know that I rarely cry. Some have even speculated to the fact if I was even born with tear ducts. Well, the last few days have proved otherwise. Have you ever believed in something so much that you associated that belief with your personal values....and you cherished that belief so much that you kept it near and dear to your heart? Well, what happens when that belief turns out to be a massive lie and everything that you valued comes crashing down around you? If this seems to be a bit cryptic, I'm intending it to be. For those of you that don't know, I had someone in my life completely betray my trust and it's been hard for me to swallow. I'm doing fine, so please don't worry, but just know that I'm coping with something right now that is foreign to me and I'm trying to make sure that I handle it properly. It's just so hard to look at someone and think that everything that you thought you knew is a fallacy and that you can no longer trust this person....a person you let into your life and helped in the direst of circumstances, only to be taken advantage of for such an unbelievable amount of time. While I'm still very excited for the future events of the New Year to unfold, I'm just amazed at how exhausting it can be to maintain the relationships in your life when you just want to be alone enough to think things over....and when you're too exhausted to juggle so much. Well, I think I'm going to go back to bed and see if I can actually sleep for another hour or two. When in doubt...or overloaded with things to sort out...the only thing I can think to do is to sleep as long as possible and recharge. Until later!

HAPPY FING 2009 BITCHES!!

Good god almighty WELCOME to a NEW YEAR! Honestly, I had a pretty good year in 2008, but I am so freakin excited to welcome 2009. It's been such a tumultuous year for the majority of those close to me and I'm anxious for them to have a bit of an absolution. Anyway, as far as New Years Resolutions go (and I love the way Jennie did hers...here's to you sassy lady!)...I'm going two traditional ones and 1 not so traditional. Of course, I want to lose weight and get out of debt...but it's more than that. I want to make it sound like a goal and way of life rather than a negative insurmountable task....I want to be healthier and be more responsible with my money. The biggest resolution that I have is to LOVE MYSELF MORE. I never take care of myself the way I take care of others. I want to make myself a priority and focus on more "me" time. I want to learn to be comfortable in my own skin and enjoy being alone. Take take for what I need and listen to myself more.....better yet...just TRUST myself more. Maybe it's sounds selfish but OH WELL...call me selfish then. It's about damn time for me...that's for sure. I also want to love myself enough to stand up for myself more when bad influences are around me and trying to make me feel inadequate. I wish for every one of those closest to me...find more time this year to make yourself more healthy....physically (of course), but more importantly.....make yourself spiritually and EMOTIONALLY healthy. Also, if you have the chance...read YOU! Being Beautiful. You won't be disappointed! Oh, and go see YES MAN! I'm going today for the second time...speaking of which....gotta go!

Miss you already Kimbe! It was great to see you on Xmas eve!

HA! I actually blogged today

Miracle of miracles...I'm actually blogging on two consecutive days...I know...I know...no applause necessary. Anyway, today has been a VERY lazy day. I was supposed to go to Flagstaff, but I've still had this narly cough that I can't get rid of (thank you AZ winters!) so I figured it best to stay home and nurse myself. I've been trying to watch all of the movies in my DVD library in alphabetical order for quite some time now and so far, I'm in the Rs. I watched Rent and Requiem for A Dream. Nice & depressing on this beautiful Sunday.....at least I got to watch Jared Leto...mmmm yummy....that man is GORGEOUS! :-) Anywho, getting ready to eat lunch and watch Runaway Bride. At least there is a comedy in my future. I hope I at least try to clean the house today....probably not. Heehee. Later maters! :-)

Long Time...No Blog...Sowie

So if you have the chance at all, make sure to go see YES MAN. In a word....HYSTERICAL. I have never laughed so hard at a movie. I know that the reviews were pretty sucktacular...but I found it to be otherwise...I thoroughly enjoyed it..obviously, or I wouldn't be writing about it. A doy! Anywho, it's a really easy going comedy so go in with low expectations. I actually bought the book today because I hear it's even funnier than the movie...and IMHO, that would certainly be a feat.

So, yeah....haven't blogged in awhile. Lots of goings on. Rather than paraphrase everything (for those of you that are reading...if I felt okay enough with telling you everything that's happened...then you know), I'm just going to brush over it all and get back to myself. I'm so tired of all of the drama in my life with my family. My sister and I are happily enjoying an awesome relationship, and my father and I are starting to get along again...or so I thought. But man, other than my sister, I seriously don't care to deal with anyone in my family. You know, I've spent the most part of the past five years trying to get their approval and killing myself inside when I don't meet their standards. And I'm sick of it. I'm not a bad person - sure I've made some mistakes, but I've never done anything to warrant being treated like I'm a fucking sorry excuse for a human being. I'm constantly treated like an outcast in my family. Any yet, I'm the ONLY one with a stable job, good income, good friends, and without "baby daddies" and "baby mommas". I'm not on the stripper pole like another cousin of mine and I pay all of my bills and my taxes...yet I'm the fucking ingrate out of everyone. It's just such a fucking double-standard. And I've constantly given the lesser important family members in my life the power to hurt me or make me feel like less than what I am. So I'm done.

Anywho, back to the Yes Man movie....yes, I still think it's awesome! It really got me thinking. I started wondering about how many times I've missed on awesome opportunities because I said no to something. Usually I say no because I don't want to go out since I hate the way I look....but sometimes I really just want to stay at home and feel sorry for myself. How sad is that? I have absolutely nothing to feel sorry for, and yet I'd rather stay in and watch Judge Judy re-runs rather than get out there and live my life. While I seriously doubt that I will adopt the Yes Man ideology...I'm sure it wouldn't hurt for me to get out there and enjoy myself.

Other than what I've mentioned above, nothing really new. Same job, same friends, same great dogs. I really want to put a video of Stitch and Elliot getting into their stocking. If I can figure out how, I'll be sure to post them. Until then, I'll leave you with this absolutely adorable picture of my gorgeous sister on the night of her first big formal dance. She is so damn beautiful! :-)

So yeah....

It's be awhile since I've written....I've just been so damn busy. Anywho, decided to join Weight Watchers. It's been successful for so many people and I think that it's a good idea. I've tried it before, but I didn't put any effort into it. I haven't eaten that great this week (actually I've been ok except for last night and today). I figure it's going to take time. Anywho, I'm off to try and do a Carmen Electra DVD cuz it looks like FUN! Yeah, I'm not a stripper or would I ever want to be, but her DVDs look like so much fun. I like dancing. Anywho....I'll let you know how it goes!

On a more personal note, I like a boy....I can't help it. He's so freakin adorable and I just want to squish his damn face off. Problem is....I suck and I won't do anything about it. I'd rather worship from afar and just imagine about it when I go to sleep at night...and I don't even mean that in a naughty way....well, maybe a teeny bit.....

We'll see how it goes.

First Week Update

So, nothing new to report this week. I haven't started any weight loss plans...if anything, I've gotten worse with my diet. I didn't do any exercise....and I've been feeling pretty burnt out lately. Even though it seems like the spirits are shining down upon me lately (review week was a tremendous success)...I can't help but feel that my present situation is the MOTHER of all oxymorons. I don't know if it's depression, or a deep seeding worry of not having anything to worry about. I am almost terrified to lose weight because it's the ONLY thing in my life that I hate. Once the weight is off, I won't have an excuse for my life's shortcomings anymore. I won't have that "whipping boy" that my weight provides. My weight has always been the tried and true reason for everything....without that cushion (literally), I feel like I'll be so exposed to my own inadequacies. This can't be a healthy way to live, mentally, at least. How can you want something so desperately...yet not want it at the same time? How does this make sense? Well, I guess my consistency in life is that I don't make sense. I think that my deep need to be accepted by others (which I WISH with everything in my heart that I could just get over) is perpetuated by my weight. If people don't like me, it has to be the weight. Without the weight, it's a character flaw and I know that having that kind of reason would devastate me. I wonder if this kind of neediness declines as your waistline gets smaller. God I hope so. Well, my goal has been moved up to October 14th because I'm going on a business trip to Ohio for 2 days and I really don't want to have to use an extender. I guess I'm just going to have to suck it up and make my life happen, starting today. God I'm tired..... :-)