Just Chillin'

So...feeling kinda lazy today. Just woke up and felt the need to blog I guess. Right now I find myself very pensive over the past few days. While the New Year does hold alot of promise, it started out with HUGE drama for me. For those that know me, you know that I rarely cry. Some have even speculated to the fact if I was even born with tear ducts. Well, the last few days have proved otherwise. Have you ever believed in something so much that you associated that belief with your personal values....and you cherished that belief so much that you kept it near and dear to your heart? Well, what happens when that belief turns out to be a massive lie and everything that you valued comes crashing down around you? If this seems to be a bit cryptic, I'm intending it to be. For those of you that don't know, I had someone in my life completely betray my trust and it's been hard for me to swallow. I'm doing fine, so please don't worry, but just know that I'm coping with something right now that is foreign to me and I'm trying to make sure that I handle it properly. It's just so hard to look at someone and think that everything that you thought you knew is a fallacy and that you can no longer trust this person....a person you let into your life and helped in the direst of circumstances, only to be taken advantage of for such an unbelievable amount of time. While I'm still very excited for the future events of the New Year to unfold, I'm just amazed at how exhausting it can be to maintain the relationships in your life when you just want to be alone enough to think things over....and when you're too exhausted to juggle so much. Well, I think I'm going to go back to bed and see if I can actually sleep for another hour or two. When in doubt...or overloaded with things to sort out...the only thing I can think to do is to sleep as long as possible and recharge. Until later!